Shut.. The fuck... Up....

I'm... Becoming anti-social again. Like, hard-core, how I used to be through grade school and begining of high school.

I don't really want to talk to anyone. I don't want to socialize, check on how they are doing. I just want to do my own thing. I just want to be left to silence.

I'd wish some of you would die, just so you couldn't bother me again. Fuck you. Fuck you in your god damned asses and enjoy it.

I don't like humanity. I don't like Earth. Is it wrong for me to wish for ruling of the planet, simply to smother all life upon it? Things just don't want to go well for me. I can't stand life's little dramatic games.

Go away drama-starters. I don't want you here. I've a lead pipe. I'm not afraid to use it.

Seriously folks, fuck off. All of you. I hate you all. If you were in my presense and tried to talk, I'd dig my nails into your forehead and tear off your face. Then claw at the muscle tissue behind the skin. I.... Want.. To... Be.. Left... Alone....

Fuck art. Fuck music. Fuck socializing. Leave me alone!

Unless of course, I instigate a conversation with you first. Then it's all good. =)

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