VINDICATED!

Powerful song, when you're not paying attention to it.

I was driving, on Friday, sometime late in the evening where the sky was dark and black. The headlights beamed forwards, and with a slip of my hand, I accidentally switched my stereo to turn on the CD player, which still had Davo's CD inside of it.

Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional played.

I may have pulled back from being Davo's best friend, for some time. I may have said things behind his back, and not liked him 100% at all times. But damn it..

That song got me thinking about him. I missed having him sitting beside me in the car, saying something annoyingly stupid. It just.. Felt weird.

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